I Try And Fail - Eden

I Try And Fail
by Eden of @the.autisticats

i try and fail
to contain these words
words not easily contained
they reach out
they strike her across the cheek
and i reach for them, i reach for her

i try and fail 
to pull her up
off the floor
to separate my tangled words
from her hair
where they got stuck
and inched their way around her neck

i try and fail
to apologize
to explain what the mess all means
it’s not enough

i try and fail
to separate myself 
from the source of the words
but she knows they are mine
and i do too
so she takes out her scissors
and cuts off her hair
leaving my words
with no place to tangle
and no place to call their own

i try and fail
to remedy what cannot be fixed
i dress her scars in gauze
and i wonder
why i didn’t do this sooner
if the monster inside regrets a thing
and if it died
whether anyone would dare come closer